New label?

Single. Suburban. Mom. now... Sandwich.
I am now taking care of my dad as well as my child.

Overwhelmed?

gotta get the house ready for my dad moving in. need to get new tires on the car. have to shift all the furniture and have a yard sale to get rid of things. goodwill!

chicabella, my daughter is going through a growth spurt or something and has some serous defiance experiments cooking.

would it be so much to ask for a couple of stress free days?
jeeze.

I do my best as a parent

I say this to myself everyday. I hear her cry about something I have no control over, i give her a hug and sooth her anxiety anyway I can. I keep her healthy, safe and sheltered. I make sure she eats good healthy food and keep her active with friends and family (as much as I can since we live so far from everyone.)

I do my best.

My best isn't always great, perfect or AWESOME!
But it's Good. It's predictable and it's what I can do.
And its okay.

Accept uncertainty.

Don't regret, even if it was a failure... or you will end up second guessing yourself for always and forever.

I am going to work on the accept uncertainty. I worry a lot about decisions I make. Especially ones for my child. I never thought i regretted decisions I've made, but then why would i be second guessing and worrying about new decisions I have to make?

Anxiety and fear must not rule my everyday life. Yet, the balance between making informed and calculated decisions with taking chances and being open to new experiences must be made.

That balance is the hard part.

decisions

as a single mom, i think the power to make decisions is the most difficult. it's great i can be the ONE to decide. no one argues with me, well, except the kid. but also, being the one on whose shoulders the failure falls if its a bad decision.... is simply awful.

i panic sometimes over a decision when it's a tough one that will have ramifications for many years. sometimes i need to bounce ideas off friends and their families to see if when i'm thinking isn't simply crazy.

i just wish there were someone for whom my daughter's welfare was a priority as much as it is for me.